it’s about 3 weeks into 2022 and I am on the struggle bus. School started up a few weeks ago and I am having difficulty engaging in class and not finding the desire to do my homework. I am also feeling stagnant in my life, just a lot of blah. I guess. I am pretty Read More…

Well I am sitting here trying to work on a paper for my current class and having a lot of trouble focusing on it, and I think I know one reason why. I stay in contact with my friends from my more entertaining days and they were sharing some things with me yesterday, in that Read More…

I have drank many drinks with kings and queens, I have had politicians praise my name, I have seen the sun begin to dim, I have seen the rubble that remains when everything falls, and I learned some lessons. I have learned who is there for me when the glitter fades and the walls wont Read More…

This week has seriously sucked the energy out of me, I blame the cold. I am feeling very low energy and having trouble engaging in my to-do list, I have a box of stuff sitting in my living room I need to sort, I have another box full of festival weapons that I need to Read More…

Well here it is, 2022, normally I would be trying to get used to a new schedule at work but this year I am staying on my same schedule, which has been a bit confusing for me this week as I have new partners in dispatch. The weather got very cold here this week and Read More…

So in a few days, 2022 will be upon me, for most people the start of a new year is symbolic of a fresh start, for me it is a moment of dread, history has shown me that something bad, usually health-related happens to me in even number years.I realize that this is coincidental, but Read More…

The title has very little to do with this post, I just thought it sounded cool. I have been processing a lot of things the past few weeks and months. Looking back depression really had a hold of me, and it was holding me down and although I was trying to fight it, I was Read More…

Greetings my true believers, what a ride the last few months have been. Nothing like a complete nervous breakdown combined with a vivid dream with talking cats and ancient swamps to get you back on the road to recovery. That was a joke, I am still trying to get my head around a lot of Read More…

Little one, the ones who should have kept you safe didn’t, the ones who should have always loved you and made sure you knew you were loved, failed. I will never know your name, and I know you were gone long before help arrived. But I promise you just as they’re are cruel monsters in Read More…

My side business has had some interesting changes in the last few months, in August we got our own space, an office in Saint Paul with access to a conference room for bigger classes. We have been teaching fairly regularly, although not quite as much as I need to be able to stay in the Read More…