So its 11 days until my surgery and the long period I am out from work. I am pretty nervous honestly, I am learning a lot about myself right now. I have had some really big ups and a huge number of downs. two weeks ago, I was post biopsy and had a melt down, Read More…
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t-minus 14 days
two weeks from right now, I intend to be sitting in a hospital bed debating whether I actually want to watch tv or just go to sleep. to recap, because it’s been a strange ride for the last few weeks. I will be having surgery June 12th, where they will go in and remove most Read More…
im sitting here,
14 days 12 hours from now I will be at the U of M getting ready for my surgery. honestly im scared. scared that I wont be able to function like I do now, remember right now im in no pain and have no issues beyond that pesky biopsy scar. scared that Gillette wil realize Read More…
Sunday, or a head not full of percocet
first let me apologize for the pity fest of the last few days, its not what I want, but sometimes I think we just need to vent. and yes it hurt like crazed monkeys stabbing me in the balls with hot pokers. as I said before they cut into me and removed 2 inches of Read More…
so my version of 10 of 10 pain
so we in the medical field especially those in the ambulance and ER settings frequently judge people when they are walking and moving but claim to be in10 of 10 pain. I can tell you I am in the worst pain of mylife right now, but I am walking and not curled up. because to Read More…
Post Biopsy
had my Biopsy yesterday, i was out for a total of 2 hours hey cut an inch long incision in me and removed about 2 inches of growth. my doctor is very confident this was caught extremely early, still unknown if I am going to need a full surgery with allografts and such, or if Read More…
My Biopsy
at 7 am tomorrow thursday May 15th, i will be going to FV Riverside for my needle biopsy of my tumor, in hopes to learn what it is. I will be put under for a couple hours and then will get sent home. there are a broad range of things this could be from benign Read More…
preparing for the worst – idle thoughts
so I have been stewing in a sea of people with far worse cancers than i have, who have had to have legs removed and huge pieces of pelvis forcing them to either walk with crutches or wear a cumbersone prostethetic device and use a cane. This does not suit me, or fit my plans, Read More…
this whole thing
I am coming to the conclussion this whole thing is wearing on me. I am sittign at work realizing, I just don’t want to be here, its not that I don’t like my job, I think its great but I am so internally pre-occupied with this whole thing that I jsut don’t have a whole Read More…
Post Bone Scan, and the forceable future
On Thursday I got the call from my Orthopedic Oncologist the bone scan confirmed that we are only dealing with this one area and there does not appear to be anything that has spread, The tumor board determined that my freeloader warrants a biopsy. I had hoped they would come back with different results but Read More…