I am hoping to make this a frequent part of this blog, time will tell. I have had the rare ability to train with some of the best firearms and close quarters combat instructors in North America over the last three decades, the emphasis was always on winning a gun fight, which includes the principle Read More…
Category: The Scary Shit
Finding Forgiveness.
Two years ago yesterday I had my internal hemi-pelvectomy with limb sparring surgery, throughout this blog I have given updates and kept a running theme about my recovery and my journey to become healthier and more functional. The last two years have certainly brought their triumphs and their defeats and through it all I have Read More…
On My Soap Box-Minimizing Your Problems by Comparing Them To Mine.
I find myself in the same situation virtually everyday with people. The situation often goes like this: Me: Hey “John” how’s your back doing? John: It hurts and all I want to do is sit here and not move. Me: Man that sucks, been there myself, is there anything I can get you? John: No Read More…
Been Struggling for Awhile
I have been struggling for a long time, feeling like my life has become meaningless, and that I have reached the sum of my existence. Some would suddenly perk up their ears and think I am become self destructive, but that’s not the case, in fact I have never been more focused on feeling like Read More…
A Friend Let His Demons Win Last Night
Earlier this evening I received word that a friend took his own life last night. Losing someone is never easy, but in this case he was young, had a wife and family, and so many good things in his life. I realize that none of those things truly matter to someone who starts down the Read More…
Follow Up to Yesterday
I have had a little over 24 hours to digest what my doctor had to say yesterday, I have spoken to two trusted friends about things and was surprised at their response, both felt that I would be better off losing the leg. This of course is not something I am at all interested in Read More…
Got the News About My New Pelvis
Today I got a phone call from my Orthopedist Dr. Cheng today, he wanted to follow up on the results of my blood draw yesterday. I am currently free of infection which was as expected. My doctor laid out three options as he saw them which I will detail out shortly. I feel the need Read More…
Sometimes everyone’s armor gets dented.
This past weekend marked a year since I legitimately became functional, if not very graceful on my feet. I also had probably the worst fall I have had in the last year, I did my best to hide how i injured myself but it was a rough few days, it also made me afraid. I Read More…
Feeling Un-Sure
I am feeling rather unsure of myself right now, that’s the best way to put things. I left the world of full time user experience design in 2015 because my soul needed to be out outside, I simply put couldn’t handle another lay off, another cubicle job, and yet another disappointed look from Mrs. ZM Read More…
Dogs, Scars, and the No Good Terrible Bad Day
Today has been a rough one for The Zombiemedic Family. To begin, a year ago today I had my big surgery, I am still pretty much a cripple in many ways, I am sore all the time, and I am unable to be intimate with my wife in the same way. For the last few Read More…