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The Continuing Adventures of The Zombie Medic
Several things have been going on in the world of the Zombie Medic, I am finishing my fist year of my masters in Forensic Computing, this last quarter was really tough and I hope the next class isn’t as heavy on research papers. My eventual goal is to work for law enforcement or another group Read More…
Protected: Righteous Anger and No Place to Go
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Today is a Very Special Day
5 years ago today I woke up in the ICU of the University of Minnesota after my surgery to remove a 10 cm cancerous tumor from my pelvis. I still have residual issues from that period of time, when I am alone in a quiet room I can hear a vent beeping, I can still Read More…
Unpopular
I am 44 years old, I have been in public service all of my adult life, I have trained with and trained people in basic first aid as well as tactical ems operations. I have received two separate awards for valor for risking my own safety in defense of another person. I have helped hunt Read More…
My Demons and Mr. Rogers
Things have been very tense in the Twin Cities of late with all the protests and uptick in violence, as a dispatcher I am bombarded every day by people whose lives are falling apart, my own anxiety has been ticking upward for the last few weeks and at times I am at my point of Read More…
I Heard Your Last Breath
I heard your call for help, I heard you begging for someone to save you, that you were bleeding to death, I promised you that help was on the way and I wouldn’t hang up until they arrived. I stayed with you on the phone when you stopped talking, listening for your breathing, I heard Read More…
Sentespri sa a ki mache apèl sou èd dis tig
I am lost, my compass is broke, i can’t see the stars, the rivers are frozen and I can not see their flow, and the moon has hidden her face, I am alone and I am scared. I stopped taking my my anti-depressants 2 weeks ago in an effort to actually start feeling things again, Read More…
Covid 19, Long Hours, and Other Things.
Our dispatch center has been on mandatory 12 hour shifts since April of this year, and its likely going to extend into the new year. We are on these hours because of significant staffing issues as well as poor management choices in regards to staffing. Our medics are rapidly reaching the state of burn out Read More…
Mrs. ZM is a Rockstar and The Wanabes are Running Around.
Yesterday I posted that I was feeling a bit lost, and was feeling like I was kinda losing myself. This morning I had a long talk with Mrs. ZM and was able to tell her I was wishing I was not here anymore, its not a desire for self harm, just a desire to not Read More…