Following yesterdays news that my pelvic surgery would need to be revised this fall I was understandably in a state of shock. After a night of sleep and some time alone to wrestle with my internal demons I came to grips with what was going on and started a plan.

The ultimate realization is that i have very little control over what is happening. I can’t control the fact my alograft is broken, nor can i magically will it all back together. What I can control is my attitude and how I am going into this. The best I can do is make my appointments, lose weight and most importantly live.

Today I am back to work, Im tired and wondering if this is where I want to be for the next 15 years.

well once more into the breech