Earlier today I learned of the tragic passing of one of the people I work with at the Renaissance Festival. He passed away tragically in a hit and run accident Sunday afternoon, his wife who taught my son all about stilt walking and performing with a crowd was in the vehicle with him, she is going to be physically ok, but I can’t fathom what she has must be going through right now.

I am going through a rough patch at work, it all started with my failed hip reduction and subsequently finding out that my pelvic graft has failed. I simply put do not see the point in being here, I know that this is a bi product of my depression and it will pass,  I am going through extra training in order to address issues that I am having although some of what they said was a bit confusing to me, I know I have some fairly intense anxiety at work and am trying to work through those issues.

Waiting on answers to when my pelvic surgery is happening is driving me crazy. I was told months ago that my doctor started the ball rolling by one surgeon, but told that they would be just starting the process by my second surgeon, I wish they knew what was going on so they could tell me.

Went out and about with Mrs. ZM this past Saturday, it was nice, ended up going to a local pub to listen to a band that used to play at the Renaissance Festival years ago, saw some old faces met some new, again it wasn’t to bad.

I am hoping that either the new job opportunity that was presented last week works out or that I can manage to get my self up to speed on UX principals and can make up a solid portfolio and find a different job that will not be so draining on my energy. There is a huge double edge sword to this and that being that if I go outside of the company I work for there is questionable whether I have short and long term disability as well as I would have to push back any surgery for a year o be guaranteed fmla.

I am saddened Mrs. ZM is missing out on two nice trips she earned through Pure Romance, but glad she is setting up an alternative trip to see her friends in Toronto. I will feel terrible if my surgery is suddenly scheduled for that time period.

Otherwise I am living my life and enjoying all that I can of it,