Tomorrow I will be turning my letter of resignation into my boss. To say I am beyond nervous about this would be a gross understatement. Several things might happen, they could ask me to leave right then and there, this would suck, They could let me ride it out till the very end, which is my plan. there is potentially a third option, although I am doubtful, they MIGHT ask me to work remotely and keep me on to handle UX work and other things until they get my replacement in, to be honest I think this wont happen, but it is an option.
On small hiccup is that my boss goes on vacation the week after next.. my last week, i planned this poorly, she might cut me loose next friday, granted I have enough vacation time to float me for that week it will still kinda suck because I will go quite awhile without a check if my figures are correct about 3 weeks.
I am convinced this is the best thing for me, I need to go back to an ambulance, I am frustrated that so many voices are telling me that its a bad choice, that I should be sticking it out at the bank because its more money, a better schedule, and you went to school for it.
well 2 of those statements are true, but I am tried of explaining to people that the job I applied for and the job I am doing are completely different, I went to school to be a web designer, I have not done an ounce of web design since my internship in 2009/2010.
I had planned on starting my freelance business by this point, and I am going to do that, but first I need to get a solid job that i can actually study at, can work on my skills, talk to clients, and generally get my skills back up. I think the only way to silence the nay-sayers is going to just do it. The fact of the matter is I am miserable doing UX, that isn’t UX, I am miserable sitting in a cubicle, miserable with the state of my life.
I spend my days trying really hard to look to the future, and muddle through the muck and mire to get to my city on the hill, because I need to repay the great gift of my legs and my health to great architect and the universe.