I am officially 1 year past my last street shift on an ambulance. Honestly I have been dreading this day, its one thing to be in that ethereal mindset of “well I’m not at the one year mark yet” and I am taking it really hard. There are people who are close to me who don’t grasp the magnitude of this situation, for the first time in twenty four years I am not eligible to work on an ambulance, I am still a Paramedic, and will continue to be one, but I will likely never work the streets again, and that is really hard for me to accept.
I am still in the waiting place, only its worse, they didn’t get a large enough sample the last time so now I need to go back in only this time my surgeon is going to open me up and take a sample, maybe he can pop my hip into its socket, be really nice to be able to actually walk, even if it is with crutches, just the ability to bend my leg would be amazing right now.