This past weekend marked a year since I legitimately became functional, if not very graceful on my feet. I also had probably the worst fall  I have had in the last year, I did my best to hide how i injured myself but it was a rough few days, it also made me afraid.
I am going through a rough patch right now, I am legitimately realizing that the shift I am on is probably the one i will be bidding for the 2018 shift bid, yes I could do the day side float spot fairly likely, possibly there might be a mid day shift (off by 10 every night) but I’m not holding my breath, its just to hard to have a relationship with Mrs. Zm. with me having to get up at 4AM.

I am also a terribly bad communicator, I suffer from foot in mouth as well as slow cadence so people almost always attempt to finish my sentences, or mis-understand me because I am not speaking clearly, I legitimately wonder if I managed to actually cook my noodle last year, words are often really hard for me, or I am not conveying what I need effectively, this could also be a symptom of serious ptsd coming to the surface.  Regardless its starting to get to me, at least today.

My pain meds are no longer covering my issues.  i don’t actually feel pain like everyone else, i actually can’t feel a whole lot in my left hip, what my pain presents as is tightening of the thigh muscles. which i can feel whenever i move my leg. I have developed a tollerance to those meds, which means its time to start weening myself off of them. After Renaissance Festival will be a great time to do that.

Im trying to get my web design skills up to speed again, but things keep popping up, but like everything the last year it is a test and I need to work at it.

Just a lot of heavy stuff i guess