I feel the need to say this before I begin: I am not special, I am not a unique little daisy, and I am blessed beyond words that I have a treatable cancer that even worst case scenario wont kill me and I will have many more years ahead of me, alot of folks can’t say that, and my heart hurts for them.  The purpose of this blog is keep my friends and family both chosen and biologic in the loop of what is usually my closed off brain.

a busy day, a hard day, lead into what sadly became my first break down tonight.

I am busily trying to get things cleaned up and squared away along with tossing stuff, goodwill trips, being a dad, and upkeep on the house etc.  A typical spring weekend in my life.

BUT what is adding to this frustration:
I have a pelvic fracture, this was also diagnosed with the Chrondrosarcoma, but it isn’t or hasn’t been causing me pain.. i also aggravated an old injury I got working at HealthEast in 2010 last weekend either at Lake City or moving around alot of junk in my backyard.

tonight, I needed to do some laundry, and i slipped on the bottom of the stairs just enough to shift the load in my arms and make me land weird on my toes, i dropped the laundry baskets throwing off my balance torquing that back again and causing a massive stab of pain to shoot down my leg, and then proceeded to completely lose my shit sitting on the floor of my basement and all of the fear and everything just rolled out of me for what seemed like 10 minutes, it wasn’t pretty and suddenly felt like the world was crushing down on top of me.  And then it went away, ugh this is going to get bad isn’t it.