first let me apologize for the pity fest of the last few days, its not what I want, but sometimes I think we just need to vent.  and yes it hurt like crazed monkeys stabbing me in the balls with hot pokers.

as I said before they cut into me and removed 2 inches of material, this morning per my doctors orders I 1) took a shower, oh my god was that AWESOME, anyone who knows me knows that when the zombies come, the easiest way of keeping chris in the fight is occasionally letting him hose off in something resembling hot water.

2. I removed the bandage, now I’m not a doctor but I have seen enough surgeries on tv monitors at Gillette Childrens Specialty healthcare to know DAMN that’s a big incision.. through my muscle layer next to my scrotum, this explains why my abdominal muscles hurt and why certain bodily functions natural to males have stopped for a bit.

yesterday I went all day with ibuprofen and only took my heavy pain killers at night because rolling over in my sleep makes those monkeys I mentioned earlier come back.

I also think I have sleep apnea, I usually sleep on my left side, I can’t do that right now because of surgeries etc, but I am waking up with a raspy voice and in general feeling like the cat pooped in my mouth.  I know a lot of this is weight based, I had dreams of pounding the pavement for an hour a day by this point, but all of this crap kinda took the wind out of my sails,  plus I need new running shoes better designed for how I move, thank “the Running Room” on Grand Avenue

I have been video blogging but there isn’t a whole lot to post right now other than me vetching about pills and the cat.

it is occurring to me that with our household schedule and the fact im pushing 3 bills we might need to bring in a pca after my surgery, but not the usual kind, someone who can help move my butt off the floor and help me into bed, and get things for me, I dunno, idle thoughts on a sunday morning