14 days 12 hours from now I will be at the U of M getting ready for my surgery.

honestly im scared.

scared that I wont be able to function like I do now, remember right now im in no pain and have no issues beyond that pesky biopsy scar.

scared that Gillette wil realize I am not actually needed and downsize my job while im out.

scared I wont be able to do my job, the doc says “return to work” in 6-8 weeks, but im not sure he knows what my job entails. and everything I have heard is no heavy lifting for 6 months.

its been a really rough two weeks for me, everything from a facebook post that was taken far differently than I meant it to  there has been alot of pain, and I am not sleeping well because of it.  I am blessed anj doesn’t mind me curling up to her at night, mostly because she is there and she is steady, and right now I need that steading influence.

next wednesday i will be having dinner at the Masons lodge in Minneapolis preparing for my 1 day to mason event a few weeks later, yes I will be 9 days post surgery and becoming a mason.

more later