Our dispatch center has been on mandatory 12 hour shifts since April of this year, and its likely going to extend into the new year. We are on these hours because of significant staffing issues as well as poor management choices in regards to staffing. Our medics are rapidly reaching the state of burn out that become self destructive because they are short staffed and are likewise feeling like the well is empty.

I know I am not the only one who is feeling like this, but I feel very isolated. this life I am leading seems to just be plodding along with no end in sight and I am withdrawing inward again. I accept that this is a fleeting period and will get better, but like many times in our lives it feels like it wont. I have what seems to be a list of things I need to accomplish a mile long and it just doesn’t seem to be getting done, on the plus side I was exposed to covid last week (I’m negative) so I have the next 4 days off from the gun counter, this weekend Mrs. ZM and I are going to stay in a hotel for the night to celebrate our 19th anniversary, I need this trip as much as she does.